Really, I must say that I can't believe I haven't written that............

THE CHEMO IS WORKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The tumors are visually shrinking. I will continue chemo for 2 to 6 more months....no breaks. Just a pill....every night....for the next 2 to 6 months.
I have been on a roller coaster. Sometimes I want to get off the ride. But I want to be cancer free. I want to continue to be cancer free! I remind myself that all the time. I remind myself that when I am rudely awoken (my body) in the middle of the night several times. I remind myself that when the pain is ouch ouch ouch. And I remind myself, when I have to rely on others to help me get through the day. However, when it comes to food......and I do love food...I wish I could remind myself so that I don't eat the things I do. Bland, bland, bland. I must focus on bland. Dr. Benjamin said I can work. I will keep working because I love what I do, I love my students, and I love feeling productive in this crazy world. I can't say much more at this moment. I will write more later. Feel free to ask me questions.